For awhile, I thought that the most focused causal link (conserving energy in executive management) was the answer to my problems. It is an answer, one of many, but it does not carry the spiritual weight that I thought I did.
I can tap-tap my way through life, but when I obsess over how to conserve energy I'm not focusing on the moment or the feelings the moment calls for.
Once I realized that executive management had much less to do with Nirvana than I thought, I started entertaining creative leanings. I went fishing yesterday and took pictures. Last night I watched a movie I like and ordered a pizza. Later, I took a picture of the wood stove glowing in the dark.
Before I went to bed, I journaled with my left hand as part of my training, and actually enjoyed doing it because I knew it wasn't as important as I had thought it was, just a little piece. I won't know how important it is until I apply it to moments where I'm also sucking the joy out of life like a damn lemon.
I don't want to be empty anymore.
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