I've noticed that the more I post, the more pageviews I have on a regular basis.
I forgot about that for awhile.
That being said, the more page views I do get, the more motivated I am to make positive changes in my life.
I've been gradually increasing my dose of CBD oil over the last few weeks. I now take 60mg in the morning and 60mg at night. My sciatica, which would ordinarily be bothering me because of the amount of driving I have been doing lately, is a non-issue. I am no longer depressed and have now begun to experience a level of clarity in my executive functioning that is so sharp it's almost freaking me out.
I keep thinking back to how I would train my brain with little challenges like avoiding looking at certain clocks in the room, going set lengths of time without looking at my phone (I can't do that one anymore), doing the speed limit when I was in a rush, and I realized that all those little experiments in stepping outside of my comfort zone made it easier for me to stay in the moment for long enough to accomplish whatever I needed to.
Another interesting point is that I seemed to be able to stay exceptionally calm under pressure.
How can I challenge myself today?
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Thursday, February 28, 2019
Saturday, February 9, 2019
CBD Oil Journal- 1st four doses
I took my first dose Wednesday during an outbreak of seborrheic dermatitis (minor skin condition).
I took my first dose sublingually around noon. Immediately I felt my mind slowing down but my reaction time was sufficient to drive.
Three hours later, all of a sudden I felt extremely high. This feeling eventually went away. I took my sleeping pill that night.
The next morning, Thursday, I noted that my seborrheic dermatitis was slightly less symptomatic, as though something were killing it. An interested point to note is that when my alarm went off at 6:30, I set it for 7. When my alarm went off at 7, I decided that I just didn't have the mental stamina to fight a losing battle with my alarm clock so I just got up. This is very unusual for me. My mood was very elevated for the first hour of the day.
That night, I decided to replace my sleeping pill with the CBD oil. Again, around 7:30pm, I took 28mg sublingually. I didn't sleep well. I kept waking up, shifting. I could tell that my sleep was not as high quality as with a sleeping pill but refused to let myself take one.
The next morning, Friday, I woke up tired but very clear. My seborrheic dermatitis was much better, my skin was much softer and my mood was much better. I was motivated. I went fishing, though tired, and was moved by the sudden realization that I needed more creative expression in my life, so I started taking pictures.
Last night I took 28mg sublingually and slept without my seroquel. I'm very tired but clear. I really want to back off the experiment but I want to see if I'll get tired enough to get a full night's sleep without my seroquel. My seborrheic dermatitis is almost completely gone.
About 20 minutes ago, Saturday, I decided to take half a dose (14mg) sublingually to see how a more consistent regimen would affect me and also to see how I would respond to CBD oil during the day. There's a bit of fogginess that I can offset with another medication later if I need to. The feeling of dissociation I had on Wednesday is completely gone.
See you on my new Facebook page! theintrovertexposedcs@gmail.com
I took my first dose sublingually around noon. Immediately I felt my mind slowing down but my reaction time was sufficient to drive.
Three hours later, all of a sudden I felt extremely high. This feeling eventually went away. I took my sleeping pill that night.
The next morning, Thursday, I noted that my seborrheic dermatitis was slightly less symptomatic, as though something were killing it. An interested point to note is that when my alarm went off at 6:30, I set it for 7. When my alarm went off at 7, I decided that I just didn't have the mental stamina to fight a losing battle with my alarm clock so I just got up. This is very unusual for me. My mood was very elevated for the first hour of the day.
That night, I decided to replace my sleeping pill with the CBD oil. Again, around 7:30pm, I took 28mg sublingually. I didn't sleep well. I kept waking up, shifting. I could tell that my sleep was not as high quality as with a sleeping pill but refused to let myself take one.
The next morning, Friday, I woke up tired but very clear. My seborrheic dermatitis was much better, my skin was much softer and my mood was much better. I was motivated. I went fishing, though tired, and was moved by the sudden realization that I needed more creative expression in my life, so I started taking pictures.
Last night I took 28mg sublingually and slept without my seroquel. I'm very tired but clear. I really want to back off the experiment but I want to see if I'll get tired enough to get a full night's sleep without my seroquel. My seborrheic dermatitis is almost completely gone.
About 20 minutes ago, Saturday, I decided to take half a dose (14mg) sublingually to see how a more consistent regimen would affect me and also to see how I would respond to CBD oil during the day. There's a bit of fogginess that I can offset with another medication later if I need to. The feeling of dissociation I had on Wednesday is completely gone.
See you on my new Facebook page! theintrovertexposedcs@gmail.com
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